I was elated to speak with the founder of Path Magazine and find out that he thought I had the potential to become a blogger on his website. As I put the finishing touches wrapping my sisters huge box of Paula Dene pots I got for her for Christmas (on sale I might add), Kris and my conversation came to a close.
After I hung up, thoughts of excitement were flowing through my cerebral cortex. I began to think of all the readers who could be encouraged, motivated and changed through my thoughts. Visions of emails, Facebook posts giving me good and bad feedback begin to flood my mind. I have a very creative and big thinking train of thought, and just as my ideas begin to steer towards television specials, and TBN interviews, this overwhelming feeling of panic started to creep in and whisper in my subconscious, “What if you are not good enough?” I quickly shook off the feeling, put it all in the back of my mind and continued to cook dinner and wrap presents. After Christmas, I started to realize that January 2011 was just around the corner and I needed to began to pull writing that I had previously written or compose new ones. Then the annoying feeling hit me again; this time I begin to write, well, blog in spite of how I felt.
I was afraid that I wouldn’t be good enough which caused me to want to procrastinate. I am not a procrastinator, actually the exact opposite (north style personality) so I quickly realized that it was a fear of not being good enough that paralyzes so many who are called to greatness to never even start! My second blog was born!
So I took a deep breath and composed my first blog titled “The Powerful Influence of Woman”. It took me less than thirty minutes to complete it between client calls and crunching a new construction budget for one of my general contractor clients. I then began this blog about overcoming my blogging anxiety. I can get used to this blogging thing (laughing out loud).
Fear of not being good enough will make you feel defeated and inadequate before you even start. How many great books have never been written, and inventions never patented? All because Fear & Procrastination birthed a Defeated mentality within the minds of its victims rendering them paralyzed to settle for mediocrity and lack.
I choose to live and I pray that reading this serves as an aid for you to do the same. Overcome what has been overcoming you and LIVE! God created you with a purpose! If you don’t know what your purpose is yet, pray, work and figure it out. For those who know what to do, overcome Fear, Procreation and Defeat, and take the first step towards getting it done.
No matter how scared you are of failure, you should be even more scared of mediocrity. I would rather try, fail, get up, try again, no matter how many times I have to start over, and finally succeed, than to look back on my life and realize that I never even made one single solitary attempt at being great. As you have probably already deciphered, I am feeling really proud of myself right about now. The only thing left to continually conquer is that little negative voice telling me that I won’t be able to maintain writing interesting and thought provoking materials. I guess time will tell and hopefully you will continue to read along and enjoy this new ride with me. Let the adventure begin!
Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.”
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